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god saw you were getting tired,
and a cure was not to be,
so he put his arms around you
and whispered, "come to me."

with tearful eyes we watched you,
and saw you pass away.
although we loved you dearly
we could not make you stay

A golden heart stopped beating,
hard working hands at rest.
God broke our hearts to prove us,
He only takes the best

R.I.P mommy 9/9/03
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Tuesday, February 24, 2004

this vacation was pretty fun..went by to quick tho...i dont really remember what i did..i hung out with justin and stef aloT..they were fun.. i drank alot and went to that nite thing at jillians with justin rebecca and his friends and rebecca met sum guys and left with them!? iw as likeeeee wtf but w/e...it was still fun and then the rest of the week i just hung out n stuff..friday was janines sweet 16 that was lots of fun..saturday my dad went away and i had people over...bryce stef and rob slept over..well i feel sick..im guna go byebye.

Posted at 04:52 pm by xbrokenlilstar
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Sunday, February 15, 2004

i love shrooms!

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Tuesday, February 10, 2004

[[basic surveying questions]]
.. name: Tara
.. birthday: July 28th 1988, im 15
.. color of eyes: eyes
.. color of hair: black...
.. color of heart:hmm let me see...

.. height: i *think* 5'3
.. do you like yourself?: noooo

[[if you HAD to choose, you'd say...]]
\ punk rock or hardcore metal: hardcore metal
\ long crispy hair or soft short hair: soft and short
\ cool moronic or smart loser: smart loser
\ be a lesbian or be a gay dude: gay dude
\ a puppy or a kitten: kitty
\ a broom or vaccumm: vacc
\ hot chocolate or cold soda: depends
\ rap or r&b: [there is a difference]: r&b
\ famous and hated or poor and loved: poor & loved
\ cold dark night or warm sunny morning: cold dark night if i had sum1 to keep me warm ^_^
\ grey or gray: grey
\ chicken or the egg: duno
\ real or fake: real
\ 20 dollars or 50 dollars?: heh.. 50.

[[what comes to mind when you hear...]]
// chicken: food
// camera: pix
// computer: aim
// survey: wastes time
// xanga: nothing
// livejournal: edward
// heartburn: ow
// ball: bounce
// flat: i duno
// spanish: hard to learn

[[random questions...]]
++ do you scratch yourself in public: umm no
++ do you like being pregnant: how would i know?
++ if you had 5 kids, what would be their names: never thought about it
++ what if i spelled "come" like "cum" your reaction...: *giggles* ;)
++ could this survey be any dumber? probably not..this is the dumbest one ive ever done
++ what if you were raped at age 6: that would be sad
++ what if you had a pop tart: ew
++ what if you sniffed a used pad: i WOULNDT
++ what if you licked a wet armpit: I WOULDNT

[[what do you think about...]]
!! the backside boys: ??backstreet boys??
!! the spice girls: haha i used to like them
!! the macarena: die
!! lambchop singalongs: die
!! the name May: its alrite
!! junk food: MMM
!! teenage obeseity[sp?]: w/e
!! flat soda: well...lol if its flat black cherry..it becomes juice..haha pete
!! trauma and bad memories: not good
!! bad girlfriends: stupid
!! aliens invading earth: weird

[[come on...almost done now...]]
-- do you want this to end? yea...i do
-- will you comment my blog for leaving this journal? no
-- will you marry me? no
-- will i stop now: yes...

that was so dumb i wasnt even going to post it...

Posted at 04:52 pm by xbrokenlilstar
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Tuesday, February 03, 2004
this is for bryce

um yeah since no one else reads it...or cares...but i'll pretend they do cuz its not like i ahve anything else to do rite now so ill waste my time just writing in here..so this is prob going to be long hmm last wed i went to jillians and met a cool guy justin, hes really nice..and umm me n rebecca hung out with him and his friends then pete picked us up and we went to get foof and then we went to see billy and i did sum stuff that made me relaxed but like then when i got mad at something.. iwas extremely mad about it and tired so i had a long talk with pete about his stupid driving when hes messedup which really pisses me off..and wish he would stop..especially when he has me and other people in the car!!! well w/e then on thurs i went to hottopic and hung with pete and bryce and i got a cute outfit to wear for my 1st day of school that was yesturday...on friday was my last homeschooling class with michelle and im really upsetttt about that ;( imma miss her...then i went to babysit from like 12-7:30 and my lil nieces are just crazy lil girls, they were funny and pretty easy to watch...jane woke up and crieddd and i didnt know how to make her stop then she eventually did and everything was alrite after that...when i got home i got ready and foof rob george and jeremy picked me up and went to a hotel and partied alL nite...haha well kinda we were already all pretty messedup really early...i called thEE x..not james..mike..haaaaahahaha and it was really funny. hes a jerk...alrite then i talked to bryce on the phone for a lil while and then also i went to my lil depression that i get into when i drink...but then i smoked and it was all good and i didnt sleep thurs or that nite...then saturday my dad went away and i wanted to have a paaaarty but then decided not too...but pete picked me up we went to funtazia however u spell it got our amazing stuff that we used later on in the nite and then ate and went back to my house and watched the ring and made fun of the lil boy in it...and i did his hair and makeup. yep if your a boy and u come to my house..u wont leave until i do that. mmhmmm...and then we went to walgreens and i bought a camera then we came home...and i ran in my house and i was going to hide from pete then all of a sudden i hear a voice and i seriuosly screamd so loud and freaked out..and it was becca!!! then we chilld and i got mad cuz the door wouldnt shut lol theeeeeen nick and his peeps came and we all just hung out and i did my stuff and me n becca thought it was over...and i got into my depressed mood again and then at like 10 thats when it alllllll started...theres just too much that happned to even name..but that whole nite was just hilarious and really scary..cuz aliens were contacted from my house and i guess they were pissed off so they fucked with us the rest of the nite..like seroiusly we found unherad of radio stations with fucking weird ass music u will never here...and then my tv went crazy....and i dont even know what else but i just had lots of fun..read about it in my livejournal if u really care hah...ummmmm then on sunday i went to my sisters house for my nephews bday and i hung out with all my nieces and stuff they are all so cute i love them...and aww madelaine told me she loves me and shes always the one whos always following me n stuff its so cute...i love kids..i love being a kid..i wish i was still a kid...BUT ANYWAYS>.....after that i went to sleep then woke up and it was my first day of school, as usual my anxiety started upa gain and i couldnt even eat my breakfast..but its not just like a reg school..its a boces school and theres only like 4kids in each of my classes which is really good and everyone came up to me and said hi and asked my name and was just really nice school starts at 8 and ends at 1:50..

my 1st per is math and i already learned wut they were doing and got it done really quick then just got to hang out for the rest of the period..and your allowed to order breakfast : )

my 2nd per is in the same room and is global and theres only one other girl in there, i like her shes nice

3rd i have health and we just watched the movie go ask alice..which is a book too..about a girl who does drugs...awsomee!! hah i alwyas wanted to read the book and see the movie so that was cool..

4th is lunch and sabrina this cool girl whose friends with stef, shes really pretty and so nice and was just letting me know things i should know about the school and some people in it... and wants me n stef to go over saturday and go to a concert..that would be cool..but then she hadda leave to her class and i just sat there and people came and talked to me and asked all questions, and a few girls wanted to know if i was bi and i was just likeee..ahh no lol i felt so dumb its nice people were talking to me...but i hate having all the attention..sometimes i just like being left alone and wish i could just not be noticed...

5th was gym..then um the class was playing hockey and yea i dont do that so we went into the weight room and worked out which iss sumthing i def need to do cuz of my belllllly lol

6th is sum really boring stupid computer class..no1 explained anything to me about what to do so i just sat there..

7th is english with stef...we just read the time machine..and me and stef had one of our laffing attacks..it was funy..and theres this realllllllllly weird kid in the class and he is funny too...

8th is living invirnment..yeah im dumb and am in a lot of 9th grade classes still :( well heyyy i was out for like 3months last year what do u expect!! w/e umm the teacher in that class is awesome and i have it with cool kids we get done with our work at like 1:30 and just sat and talked the rest of the period and that was it..

i came home and called bryce cuz he is one of my bestest friends and i loe him and i wanted to make suree he was ok cuz he wasnt doing to good the nite b4...and then talked to him after that me and pete went out and went to michaels the craft store and i bought stuff to make bracelets with and spray candy that im obsessed with..then we went to sallys beauty supply and i bought pretty dark purple hair dye that im eventually going to either use to do all my hair or streaks in my black hair...then i came home and slept..till it was time for school...and today sucked cuz stef wasnt there and im still not so sure of my way around and stuff and it just was gay with out her :(

now i am here eating pizza and zepoles mmmmmm good stuff...okay well goodbye!

Posted at 03:25 pm by xbrokenlilstar
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Wednesday, January 28, 2004

well last night when i went to sleep i like decided to sleep from 4 in the day..then wake up at 2am and then i went back to sleep till like 4.. i just love sleeping so much, its the greatest thing i always have funny dreams...but yeah then i went back to sleep until like 7 i think...and ive been up since, i watched kid in king authers court i think thats what its called..hahah pete we watched that the crazy night u came over..and we were so amazed that the boy in it.. became kevin in american pie haha we couldnt get over that..anyways after that i watched black knight kinda..and then the crow..he is a sexxy man..lol then i took a bath and i could finally take one without all my hair dye turning the bath turquoise....mhmm i love baths!! wow its already 1 the day went by SOOOOOOO FAST!! ok well byebye

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Tuesday, January 27, 2004
im back! :D

well..i decided to come back and use this again..cuz i get bored and i like to change the look of it and stuff my next one is going to have a sexxxxy guy on it..but this will do for now. rainbow brite is so0o cute :D well yeah i spent most of my nite on doing all of this cuz theres not much else to do when everyone else is sleeping..cuz im awake when everyone sleeping...and when everyone is awake.. im sleeping.

i sleep from like 2-11pm...and then i stay up and go to tutoring for 2hours..come home and go back to sleep

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Wednesday, November 26, 2003

i duno i got sick of this thing... i wanted to do sumthign knew with it but the codes are just way too confusing.. im gunna go back to my ujournal...so long blog...i had fun with u while it lasted<3

maybe ill come back once ina while


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Sunday, November 23, 2003
Iím addicted to you...donT you know that your toxic

k so thursday me pete and foof went to roosevlet and walked around for a lil and stuff..then bryce and his friend came and we hung out bu then we had to leave at 8:30 then just chillled...then later on in the nighT we picked up becca and got sum stuff and then we hung in petes car and lots of silly things happend...hahahaha what a fun night...then friday at 3 we were soposed to go visit kelly but petes car just broke in the middle of the road and it was scary then we waited till like 5 to get petes dads car and finally went to the hosp and we stayed there till 8 and played on that i duno how u spell it but that bored thingy that u ask questions and its soposed to know the answer or w/e..that scary thing..yea u know wut im taling about..then we went to burger king and got food..went to buy the beer and dropped off janine and diana then went back to petes and drank and then a bunch of people came over and it was just lots of fun till i started crying cuz i thought stef was dying for some reason but she was just really drunk..and then i was thinking about everything..and i was upset about my mom and james and some other stuff.. and i never really cry so i guess when im drunk i just get aloT more emotinal and everythign that i hold in just comes out all at once..and it really sux cuz i dont want it to happen like everytime i drink.....so i mite not drink or anytying anymore for a while...im getting kinda sick of it...but i still had a really good time on friday besides that part of the nite..then i hid from everyone...as a joke..then becca came to look for me and she didnt even see me lol then pete found me came to look for me and i just stayed there and fell asleep but i didnt mean to do that...and i dont really remember much from that nite..but it was still fun i know that..oh well then yesturday was just a really shitty day...ther ewas nothing to do and everyone was just ina bad mood and i was soposed to go to nj and i really wanted to go but i needed sleep for today cuz i ahd to wake up early sooo yeah i couldnt go...and thats about it.peeeeace

music: britney-toxic...i love this song! lol

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Sunday, November 16, 2003
boys are fucking assholes

wow friday was the most confusing nite of my life lol it was really funny though,....and saturday was really fun until i talked to james and he said some really upsetting things that made me cry...and i like NEVER cry...but w/e...he told me that he doesnt love me and he didnt mean it when he said it..that it was just somethign to say..and hes like well i didnt say it in person or on the phone..it was only on the computer..but w/e that doesnt fucking matter..u dont tell someone you love them if u dont mean it...and i was really worried to go out with him at 1st cuz i didnT wanna get hurt like i did with mike...and i thought i could trust him...but i guess i was really wrong...now i dont know if ill ever take a chance with any guys again..and with mike yea i was really upset when we broke up but at least i know when he said he loved me i know he wasnt lieing...and if james even cared about me as a friend he wouldnt do something like that to me especially when im going throught a REALLY hard time right now....i dont understand how he could do that to me.. now im ina bad mood for thinking about it.. bye.

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Wednesday, November 12, 2003

heres some quizzes cuz i havent done these ina while and i miss them!!

You are Form 1, Goddess: The Creator.

"And The Goddess planted the acorn of life.
She cried a single tear and shed a single drop
of blood upon the earth where she buried it.
From her blood and tear, the acorn grew into
the world."

Some examples of the Goddess Form are Gaia (Greek),
Jehova (Christian), and Brahma (Indian).
The Goddess is associated with the concept of
creation, the number 1, and the element of
Her sign is the dawn sun.

As a member of Form 1, you are a charismatic
individual and people are drawn to you.
Although sometimes you may seem emotionally
distant, you are deeply in tune with other
people's feelings and have tremendous empathy.
Sometimes you have a tendency to neglect your
own self. Goddesses are the best friends to
have because they're always willing to help.

Which Mythological Form Are You?
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You represent... loneliness.
You represent... loneliness.
Always alone and always sad about it... unlike
angst, you don't have to look for a reason to
be miserable. You want to be in the company of
people but aren't sure how to act when you're
with them. Sometimes you have to make an
effort. You can't always wait for others to
come to you.

What feeling do you represent?
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Keystone Light. Bitter beer face! You're cheap but
you get the job done. Probably means that
you're an alcoholic on some level, or an
aspiring one. Good luck with that. Take a day
off once in a while and splurge the next day on
some High Life.

Which Beer are you?
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You're goin' down! FOR DOING DRUGS!
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What Would You Go to Jail For? (Many outcomes)
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